03 December 2016

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  Happy to be back in Mysore, as always:)

Weather is getting more cooling; taking my time to daze off & people watch;
And Uber ride is everywhere!
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I didn’t feel as relax as my previous trips; rather I feel more grounded than before. 
My mind is still hyperactive, body filled up with accumulated tension and my patience wasn’t too ready to be patient.

But I have to say; I am enjoying quality sleep, without having to battle with the alarm clock at least!
 My current read: [Un- Train Your Brain] by Mike Weeks. 

Last night, flipping through pages, he highlighted a question
[What’s so good about being right all the time?]

I stopped at this page and ponder for a while… maybe not a while, overnight.

Putting this idea into context, haven’t we been around with people,
Constantly trying to be right about everything?

It is a social standard.
It is a security driven statement.
It is narcissistic.
It is a full- stop.
It is a denial.
It is rigidity.

Of course, I do catch myself in situations and debates of trying to be right, just for the sake of saving my ego. And thinking back, it was just so silly!

So then, what’s NOT so good about being right all the time?

Well…. Self- limitation kicks in.
We become less willing to understand or check out other options. We stop to discover alternatives & new ideas.

And this, by shutting the door of being right, it is already a losing game.

Sometimes, it is good to [pause] for a while, just to understand how our      
“ Responsive mechanic” works inside us.

And maybe, we get to discover better ideas than just being right?

13 September 2016

What if... no one came?

What if no one came?
What if just one student turned up?
" What would you do?"
Would you cancel the class and send that one student who appeared at the door away?

Would you continue the the class as usual?
Are you going to feel upset & pathetic about the situation for the empty space?

Or decide to be happy and focus on that one who make that effort to appear?

Maybe you will get frustrated about those who didn't put the practice as top priority?

Maybe you can understand and respect everyone's priority in life at a moment is personal? 

" Investing energy on those who show up. Those who didn't, don't matter. "
I do learn my own ways of doing things through many many ups & downs. 
Gaining that immunity to teach the way i intended to regardless of situation.
"Everything in Equanimity ", I always keep this in mind, in attitude.  

Full house or empty room, the door is still open, I will still be at the same place, doing my thing.



19 July 2016

The alarm clock inside went off--- i decided to ( stop snoozing) wake up.

I've been known as " the old soul" for the longest time that i know; among friends and peers.
And i often have to remind myself that I'm not that old!
I'm just being more reflective:)

I am convinced that everyone has an alarm clock inside us.
Mine went off just a little earlier and louder.

When it rings--- we either snooze it, or we wake up and move. I knew exactly who I was before my alarm went off.
I knew that  girl, who hated homework and tuition;
who loved to day dream and watch time passes everyday;
who was frustrated trying to understand numbers and formulas;
who look forward to school only to be with friends;
who enjoyed so much but work so little... ...
Until the alarm rang, one day. So loudly that i got a shocked and woke up since.
Somehow, I didn't want to play my time away, anymore.
Somehow, I wanted to explore the potential I see in myself.
Somehow, I really had enough of how bad others ( myself)  had made me felt.
Somehow, i told myself that I can be better.

People around you are going to doubt you. They are going to test you. All the time, anytime.
Friends, peers and even family.

To me, those doubts are distractions and chatters.
If we give too much attention to them, our intention and focus will be diluted in no time.

We cannot control what they want to say about us.
I cannot control how i feel about them. 
They cannot control how we feel about ourselves. 

I heard my alarm. They didn't.
Till they heard theirs. We will meet again.
 I was the girl who chose to ignore the alarm, and snooze on.
I can totally understand why i did that, and why i continue to snooze.

I am the same person, who got a shocked and decided to response to the alarm by waking up.
I can totally understand why i did this, and why i continue to be awake.